Jun 22nd, 2016, 02:30 PM
I don't think you guys actually believe me if I am truly sorry for what I have done, but I messaged Silas probably a few hours after the incident, and here I'll just post it here. It does have something personal in my life, and it should explain why I went the route I did. After all, this private message still didn't get my unbanned, sadly.
Just read it for yourselves.
"Hello Silas,
First off, I'd like to apologize to you, to your server, to your staff team. My behavior towards it all has been nowhere near acceptable, and I am sorry. I understand the plans I had thought of were foolish, but they were simply an hoax. There's no way I could've pulled them off, nor would I ever. I'm extremely upset that I am now banned off your server for my actions, and I completely take them back..
I know you probably don't care, nor am I asking you to but not many people on the server know my story, but I am willing to tell you now, and why it lead me to those thoughts... I've been battling severe depression, and the people on your server, well the server itself has been helping me with that.. You can ask my faction, you can ask Miner, I've explained to them about it, They'll tell you my depression isn't something made up for you to feel sympathy, but simply to let you know why I've showed much anger towards people on your server. I've contemplated suicide on many occasions within the past weeks due to what happened, and you know life has been hard recently for me, but your server has really kept me up, my friends on there have really brightened my day, but Brian, and his friends.. they constantly harass me, they constantly call me names, they're practically bullying me every chance they get.. including your staff team that's friends with them. They mock me. They're just pushing my buttons, and already being severely depressed, and angry... it led me to those thoughts, and decisions which led me to get banned. I'm begging you to give me another chance on your server, and you have my word my foolish acts won't ever happen again. I will personally apologize to them for my thoughts, and I can even explain to them why it happened in the first place.. All I am asking is for a 2nd chance.. please.
-Kinda in topic. Kinda off topic, I was banned off your TS for being a smartass, when I had no intentions on being one. I sent a video to a guy in message, and you told me to stop harassing him, and they all joined my channel as I was posting it in the public chat of the channel, and I had asked him to leave, but he denied to leave, and now I am also banned on there.."
Just read it for yourselves.
"Hello Silas,
First off, I'd like to apologize to you, to your server, to your staff team. My behavior towards it all has been nowhere near acceptable, and I am sorry. I understand the plans I had thought of were foolish, but they were simply an hoax. There's no way I could've pulled them off, nor would I ever. I'm extremely upset that I am now banned off your server for my actions, and I completely take them back..
I know you probably don't care, nor am I asking you to but not many people on the server know my story, but I am willing to tell you now, and why it lead me to those thoughts... I've been battling severe depression, and the people on your server, well the server itself has been helping me with that.. You can ask my faction, you can ask Miner, I've explained to them about it, They'll tell you my depression isn't something made up for you to feel sympathy, but simply to let you know why I've showed much anger towards people on your server. I've contemplated suicide on many occasions within the past weeks due to what happened, and you know life has been hard recently for me, but your server has really kept me up, my friends on there have really brightened my day, but Brian, and his friends.. they constantly harass me, they constantly call me names, they're practically bullying me every chance they get.. including your staff team that's friends with them. They mock me. They're just pushing my buttons, and already being severely depressed, and angry... it led me to those thoughts, and decisions which led me to get banned. I'm begging you to give me another chance on your server, and you have my word my foolish acts won't ever happen again. I will personally apologize to them for my thoughts, and I can even explain to them why it happened in the first place.. All I am asking is for a 2nd chance.. please.
-Kinda in topic. Kinda off topic, I was banned off your TS for being a smartass, when I had no intentions on being one. I sent a video to a guy in message, and you told me to stop harassing him, and they all joined my channel as I was posting it in the public chat of the channel, and I had asked him to leave, but he denied to leave, and now I am also banned on there.."